It's been about three weeks since I have been off of Tamoxifin (okayed by my cancer doctors) and I feel like a woman again. I feel empathy for women who go through "the change" because everyone around you try to help but the woman who is going through the change is on an emotional roller coaster...I feel bad for my husband who endured this drug with me on this journey for more than three years (including my two kids and my students at school)...will you all every forgive me?

Here is to more Peace in the world...

Surprise visit from Jonathan and Lizette

#50 loves her basketball team!

Emmet on the first day of Spring

clada girl

E's cake

No Fun With Square One

I am posting a complaint that I filed earlier today with the Better Business Bureau. I signed up with a company in hopes of decreasing my debt. Now I am back at the drawing board, but avoiding bankruptcy. Please do not be a victim or scammed by this company or any other company who promises to cut your debt in half:

"Dear BBB,

SQ1 promised to cut my debt in half. They required that I give them a portion of money that was to be used to settle my debts. This started in November 2009 where they deducted 732.42 every month. They instructed me to save approximately 200.00 on my own. It was my understanding this company would be communicating closely with these creditors. They did not. Upon my own research they had not even started calling these companies. Two of my creditors sent me letters from their lawyers one for 30.000.00 and another for 16,000.00. They both threatened me with garnishing my wages. 3662.10 I have paid in total to SQ1. I then spoke to a lawyer (he did not charge me) and he stated I could do this all on my own. He also told me to run away from this company as fast as I can because it appears that the credit card companies will garnish my wages. I started calling the creditors directly and they set up some affordable plans for me, except one, Bank of America. Bank of America had to either settle the account with me immediately or I had to file for bankruptcy. I called SQ1 to please get a refund so I could use these funds to pay my credit card. They tried to talk me into staying with SQ1. I called two additional times, they promised to get back to me with my request and they did not. I do not want other families to become victims of this program. And I realized that all the credit card companies have offered settlement programs with my personally after I get my account current. I need my money back and I need the BBB to let others know what they offer, the consumer can do on their own. Please do not get ripped off."

It Takes Courage To Be Happy

And I want to be happy again while my children are still in the house and miss me every day...

I am going off Tamoxifin

After three years of dedication and effort of taking a medicine, I have decided to discontinue the drug as the side effects far out weigh the benefits. I am tired of being cranky...I want to enjoy my children and my students as much as I can and my poor husband has had to deal with my excessive mood swings for far too long. I want to be happy and the research that my husband and myself have done is that I will be okay.

I am looking forward to new beginnings in my life...